(Journal #1:  January 6, 2005) Post #3

My health is still under attack. The cardiologist’s office just called with some test results that don’t make sense. I’ve never even met the doctor, only seen the P.A. What’s going on, Lord?  I will not give in to fear!  I trust You, Lord, and I know that I am healed by Your stripes. I seek Your wisdom. James 1:5 says that You give wisdom to ALL who ask, but I must believe and not doubt. Sometimes that is hard.  But Lord, I have literally gone into my closet, gotten on my knees and asked you to show me what to do. I have done everything in the natural that I know to do that makes sense. But I have no peace about any of it. No doctor can give me answers, just prescriptions. The more I take the worse I feel.  I just know Lord that this isn’t right. Show me what to do!

When Peter got out of the boat to walk on the water to Jesus, he began to sink when he noticed the wind. The other disciples saw Jesus walking on the water and it frightened them. Jesus told them not to fear.  As humans, we are afraid to trust in a miracle because we can’t comprehend it.  Peter was in the midst of his miracle when he began to lose it… fear cost him his miracle and he began to sink!  Fear took his eyes off Jesus.  But when he cried out, “Lord, save me,” Jesus immediately reached out His hand and caught him.  And He said, “You of little faith, why did you doubt?”  I cannot and will not be in fear about my heart and health. I want to be wise and follow God’s natural laws concerning my health, but I know Jesus loves me, died for me, saved and healed me. I have to keep my eyes on you Lord, and off the wind and the waves.

Psalm 118:17 “ I will not die but live, and declare the works of the Lord.”

Psalm 34:7  The angel of the Lord encamps around those who fear Him, and He delivers them.

Psalm 56:3-4  When I am afraid, I will trust in You. In God whose Word I praise, in God I trust; I will not be afraid. What can mortal man do to me?

Isaiah 41:10  So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.