(Journal #1: January 10, 2005) Post #6

It’s now 11:15 p.m. on January 10^th.  Good thing we had this lesson on faith early this morning. You opened a quick door for me today to get in to see the cardiologist so he can check things out and run some tests.  Shortly after, Dr. Duncan called to tell me the radiologist found a 3.5 cm mass close to my left kidney and I need to come back for another scan with contrast to rule out lymphoma!  My sister calls these kinds of experiences “gut punches.”  You are believing for things to turn out one way and then you get a hard punch in the gut. 

Oh, God, Your faithfulness overwhelms me! You shine Your light on the darkness. Dr. Duncan got me back in this afternoon for the second scan. He’ll call me tomorrow once the radiologist sees it. I know You are with me. I believe Your Word that tells us that by the stripes of Jesus we are healed!

But, Lord, I confess that fear wants to go to battle with my faith!  I must cling to Your Word and pray for peace that transcends all understanding.  I need to try and sleep.  Help my mind to focus on You and not fearful thoughts.

Psalm 4:8  I will lie down and sleep in peace, for You alone, O Lord, make me dwell in safety.